NO NOW

by Clarence Clarity

1. Become Death

 

2. Will To Believe

Just to be seen as honey
Dripping as a pimp spunks money
Just to be cute and heartless
Flicking at a tongue-tied sonnet

And healers
Believe in
Liars!
Believe in freedom
Heathens
Dreamers
All liars
Believe In Freedom™

I changed
I flaked.
Little pink petals off my back,
Like rain

Crazed
Debased
Gold pig peppered, strung up
Like game

And healers
Believe in
Liars!
Believe in freedom
Heathens
Dreamers
All liars
Believe In Freedom™

And the heart can't always feel it
But the head can always dream it
And then stop dreaming, be it:
And I will.

 

3. Alive In The Septic Tank

I'll be your hired gun
The lump between your lungs
I'll be that hunk of moulded plastic
In Egyptian sun and

I am hope
I am fear

Beyond Mount Zion lies
A Southmere Lake high-rise
Where I wrote ten zillion words of Shakespeare
As they hit my white eyes

I am hope
I am fear

I'm in the falling rain
I'm in your early grave
I'm in the shit between where
Hell and Heaven look the same
I'm on the highest plane
I've died a thousand ways
I hang in limbo 'cos your
Saviour looked the other way

Preach

As mortals we can try
And oh good Lord you'll try
But you can't ever offend everyone
All at the same time

I am hope
I am fear

I'm in the falling rain
I'm in your early grave
I'm in the shit between where
Hell and Heaven look the same
I'm on the highest plane
I've died a thousand ways
I hang in limbo 'cos your saviours
They all look the same
We all look the same
And we all judge the same
And we are bound to wind up lovers
'Cos we look the same
And we all fuck the same
And we'll all die the same
And in this finite cosmos
Best believe me when I say:

I am hope
I am fear

 

4. Buck-Toothed Particle Smashers

Was it genetic?
Did you catch it?
It hadn't bled
Until you tapped it
She's sun bleached
And your lucks in

Whatever gets you off
Incestuous love

You didn't know you'd get infected
Late night when you crept in
I wouldn't advocate eugenics but-

Whatever gets you off
Incestuous love

Its the yin and the yang
And the yang and the yin
Life without sex
Is a life without sin
We're just buck-toothed players
Playing ourselves out.

Expect I'll get what you expected
Its benign but defected
Its the fluoride I ingested

Atoms to dust
Infinite love

I'd quit but I don't know when to stop
When the tar in my veins begins to clot
Do I sound like I mean it?

Do you mean it?

Its the yin and the yang
And the yang and the yin
Life without sex
Is a life without sin
We're just buck-toothed players
Playing ourselves out.

Its whats inside the blister
A good girl and her sister
Lovepuss filled confessor

It swells till it blows incestuous love

Pornstruck absolution
Please cure my confusion
I might need that infusion

Padre padre Absolvo te

Its the yin and the yang
And the yang and the yin
Life without sex
Is a life without sin
We're just buck-toothed players
Playing ourselves out.

 

5. Hit Factory Of Sadness

 

6. Off My Grid

Talk to me
Through a screen
Talk to me
Like I'm real
Talk to me
Like we are destiny
Waiting.
Sinking.

Stop me swallowing fires
I'm addicted to myself
Got vindictive desires
I've got off my grid
Trapped in death waves beneath the avalanche.
Sinking.

Slow the panic down
Watching time lapse ghosts
And you're watching flowers grow, and die…
We'll scatter ashes where we met you
Throw caution to wind.
You have seeds with new arms, reaching.

Stop me swallowing fires
I'm addicted to myself
Got vindictive desires
I've got off my grid
Trapped in death waves beneath the avalanche.
Sinking.

Stop me swallowing fires
I'm disgusted with myself
Got vindictive desires
I've got off my grid
Trapped in death waves beneath the avalanche.
And sinking.

In the mistrust that I lost
In the loss that I trust
In the times I collapse
It drips like dust
And there's dreams where I'm sleeping
And there's dreams where I don't wake up

Can't stop me swallowing fires
I'm addicted to myself
Got vindictive desires
I've got off my grid
I've got one hand on The Bible
I've got voices in my head
I've got destructive desires
I fell off my grid
I fell off my grid
I fell off my grid
I fell off my grid
I fell off my grid

(Breathe)

 

7. Those Who Can't, Cheat

The Universe unfolds:

Out the gate,
Best take me out the game
Think I'd best -
Take two cos I get blue,
Cos I want to…

Alpha male
And I'll fight tooth and nail
For nothing-
I'll slip through,
And affect you
Cos I have to…

Can I get a witness:
Oops I forgot my sickness
Oops you forgot your lipstick luck again…
And who's with us?
We're flies at the reptile party
Oops you forgot your lipstick luck again…

In my leagues of hate
I'll tick me off the page
A shakedown
One word, and you'll slip through
And resent you

And I am the girl
As far as I can tell
And I'm tripping
Too deep
Down my own hole
At the death knoll

Can I get a witness:
Oops I forgot my sickness
Oops you forgot your lipstick luck again…
And who's with us?
We're flies at the reptile party
Oops you forgot your lipstick luck again…

Trust us, we're the thorns in your crown-
Court jesters.
But the lines in the skies infest us.
And the crimes in the rhymes of the U.S
Ask the weapons inspectors.

Out the gate,
I'll take me out the game
Think I could -
Fool you, cos I have to
And I want to…

Go girl, get made
And I'll park the Chevrolet
And we'll spark the black hearts
In the theme park.
Till it gets dark.

Can I get a witness:
Oops I forgot my sickness
Oops you forgot your lipstick luck again…
And who's with us?
We're flies at the reptile party
Oops you forgot your lipstick luck again…

Can I get a witness:
Oops I forgot my sickness
Seems you forgot your lip-synced lark again…
And who's with us?
We're the life of the reptile party
Oops you forgot your lipstick luck again…

 

8. Let's Shoot Up

Weh, eeyeugh
Weh, eoughaugh oeu
Nevishto-nujugetou
Weh, eoughaugh oeu
Nevishto-nujugetou
Weh, eoughaugh oeu
Nevishto-nujugetou
When:

Thas Ophelia harp
Thas omake iche phlume
You and me.
Itsoo en me
Thas omake iche phlume
Thas Ophelia harp
Thas omake iche phlume
You and me.
Itsoo en me
Thas omake iche phlume

What?

And it finds a way to your heart
Thats what makes it true
You in me,
You in me
Thats what makes it true
And it finds a way to your heart
Thats what makes it true
You in me,
You in me
Thats what makes it true

 

9. Bloodbarf

If living this without you is no good
If living this without you is no good
I'll step through a wormhole and a bloodbath in the rain
Because living this without you is no good

 

10. Tathagātagarbha

 

11. Meadow Hopping, Traffic Stopping, Death Splash

I was in Hollywood
At the Witch House
With the Reptiles
And the Catholics

You was in Hollywood
At the Witch House
With the Reptiles
And the Catholics

And I'll make you lap it up.
You got that nothing-something violence
I could never know but
You got my vengeance coming

I was in Hollywood
At the Witch House
With the Reptiles
And the Catholics

You was in Hollywood
At the Witch House
With the Reptiles
And the Catholics

Have mercy
Give me symmetry
Give me happiness
Give me sanity
Have mercy
Give me symmetry
Give me happiness
Give me CLARITY

And I'll make you lap it up.
You got that nothing-something violence
I could never know but
You got my vengeance coming

And I'll make you lap it up.
You got that nothing-something violence
I could never know but
You got my vengeance coming
I got that something-something
Judas you could never know but
You got my vengeance coming...

 

12. Porn Mountain

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I'll give my legacy the kiss of death, watch me
Split it with a holy sister's sledge-hammer
Because real villains never die, no
So we can do this all night…
Girl…

So then you spin to me
"If dishonesty's not the best policy we're in a fix"
Untruth blinds our way
"If dishonesty's not the best policy we're in a fix"

Before you go
Can you feel it?
Is it violent?
Ulysses starts to see me
In silence

HD Pictures/HD Sound

The High Priest of computations,
Has enough of his temptations,
He surfs the clouds to Porn Mountain.
… So don't ask me what I'm thinking, please

So then you spin to me
"If dishonesty's not the best policy we're in a fix"
Untruth blinds our way
"If dishonesty's not the best policy we're in a f…"

Before you go
Can you feel it?
Is it violent?
Ulysses starts to see me
In silence

Before you go
Can you feel it?
Is it violent?
Ulysses can't unsee me
In silence

Jumping on my death bed
I won't fear for anything.
Suddenly!
There's a stabbing pain in my heart
Lights go out in my head
And its over.
Oh…

 

13. One Hand Washes The Other

With one hand washing the other…

I've conceived and achieved, and I'm bleached and I'm clean
And I eat the spleen fed back to me
And I gleam and succeed in-between white sheets
In a dream where I lie next to me

I could bleed out
Emphysema
Got both feet in a swollen fever
Hear no evil
See no evil
But I can speak
And bleat for you

When you clap, I do it
I can step right to it
When you ask me to move you
When you clap, I do it
But if I stop a minute
You'll ask me to lose

With my sides in a vice, I'm concise and contrived
And my imperfections run to me
And there's flies in a pile, where my hopes go to die
Hear my plier plucked insecurities

You're looking Godly next to me,
Pull and set us free

When you clap, I do it
I can step right to it
When you ask me to move you
When you clap, I do it
But if I stop a minute
You'll ask me to lose

I was born
In love everything
Exhausted empathy
I got bored
Theres a truth in apathy
Isolated entropy
Let's get bored
Let's get born
And feed the sickle down our throats

When you clap, I do it
I can step right to it
When you ask me to move you
And when you clap, I do it
But if I stop a minute
You'll ask me to lose
When you clap, I do it
I can step right to it
When you ask me to move you
And when you clap, I do it
But if I stop a minute
You'll ask me to lose

 

14. The Cute

The Cute,
The Cute,
The Cute,
The Cute,
The Cute…

I'm channelling a tunnel vision
I panic in a c-collision
I stutter in in-d-d-decision
Lie about a premonition
What?

What you see ain't what you got
I got the block, can't join the dots
Changing colours with my mind
Been too long, gone colourblind

Not on my watch…

 

15. 1-800-WORSHIP

My missing fortune
Must be holed up
At the end of time
The slowest tortures
Kick my thoughts into
Another line
But if your teachings
Juxtapose with prose
From other rhymes
We'll write our contradictions
You've got yours
And Good Lord I've got mine

But I've read a few things about it
So forgive me if I sound sincere
But i'm circling my own self doubt
And I'll shout when I get the fear:

Help me to remember
Help me to remorse
Help me to remember
Help me to reform
Cos this won't do
Cos this won't do
Cos this won't do, ever.
So help me to help you

Unsung Zen Masters
Drop like flies, blinded in
Their own light
Unearth my secrets
And I'll preach it like my
Second lightning strike.

Now I've learnt a few things about this
Now she's harbouring a lump for love
My waters are clear, but I'm
Swimming in a back-stream, chocked by fear

Help me to remember
Help me to remorse
Help me to remember
Help me to reform
Cos this won't do
Cos this won't do
Cos this won't do, ever.
So help me to help you

 

16. The Gospel Truth

You're just a memory that you should give up
Forgotten cemetery that you should dig up
Your luck is surfacing so drink from your cup
Double-think everything, jumping the gun

Boy you know who you are
Death magnet, poison dart
You are maker of your best bad luck
And you ain't ever gonna reach the stars

I can't save myself from me

Now and then, as I feel I'm about to give up
Now and then, as I feel I'm about to give up
The disease looking at me
Scratching my insides
And haunting my sleep and
Preaching the Gospel Truth

If you're fidgety and starting to cluck
The perfect remedy you couldn't think up
And if you're hearing this voice from above
Shrink-wrap the fucker and drown it in love

Boy you know who you are
Choked up, jumped up, cock-star
Pre-teen, Spring Break sex-art
Hit that if you could just get hard

I can't save myself from me

Now and then, as I feel I'm about to give up
Now and then, as I feel I'm about to give up
The disease looking at me
Scratching my insides
And haunting my sleep and
Preaching the Gospel Truth

Holy Father, I know these are constructions
Holy Mother, been feeling your contractions
Holy Moses, ain't nothing but human
Holy Jesus, I'm glowing in your image

Crucifix in my lap, like that
A more satisfying erection
Lucifer off my back, like that
I'm the Final Revelation

Now and then, as I feel I'm about to give up
Now and then, as I feel I'm about to give up
The disease looking at me
Scratching my insides
And haunting my sleep and
Preaching the Gospel Truth
Fuck the disease looking at me
Scratching my insides
And haunting my sleep and
Preaching the Gospel Truth

 

17. No Now

 

18. Cancer™ In The Water

Before I get out
I'll put Cancer™ in the water
Before you got out
You left Cancer™ in me

 

19. With No Fear

Drip like summer rain
Streaming, it beckons me home again
And I'll leave my faith wide open
Just return me to the sea

They call it Key West
But honest to God, they don't know my name
I could be anyone
Or anywhere, as I fade into the tide
It never ends…

And,
With no fear, no
With no fear, no
With no fear, no
With no fear, no
Leave me be where I lie

Am I heavenly?
I promised to call you, but like hell I did…
Now that summer rain,
Will kill you
And all in its path
Will never learn

And,
With no fear, no
With no fear, no
With no fear, no
With no fear, no
Leave me be where I lie

For all the hits I swerved round
For all the loves I walked out on
Leave me be where I lie…
Your perfect fit, my imperfect fears
So we never did re-invent the wheel
Leave me be where I lie…
Leave me be where I lie,
To die…

And with no fear, no
And with no fear, no
And with no fear, no
And with no fear, no
Leave me be where I lie

 

20. Now I Am